Deluuuusional???

I keep waking up to terrifying hallucinations. It started shortly after I began taking this new sleeping pill my doctor thought was a good idea. I woke up, opened my eyes and I was covered in spiders. I freaked out, jumped up, brushed some of the hundreds of spiders off me, was looking at my spider-covered bed... And they disappeared. I figured a bad dream just carried on a little too long, and went back to sleep. About fifteen minutes later I woke up, opened my eyes and the spiders were back. This went on, every fifteen to twenty minutes for the rest of the night.

A few weeks ago I was parked at Alaska Land, wasting time before I had to go to work. I dozed off. When my "get to work" alarm went off on my phone I opened my eyes, looked out my window and a foot tall spider was standing on the hood of my car, I spent a good five to ten seconds freaking out and then it was gone.

Yesterday when I woke up I turned over, looked at the other side of the bed, where my laptop was sitting and saw a spider with ridiculously long legs climb into my keyboard. I jumped up, ran my computer down to my garage, set it down and went back to bed. When I woke up again I realized how unlikely it was that a spider that size could even fit into my keyboard.

This is freaking me out and making me feel a bit crazy. It's not the first time something like this has happened either. Last winter I was sure I was being haunted. A few very horrifying events had me questioning between insanity or the paranormal. I'm really hoping this just goes away. and soon.

The Aimless

Someone who cares about me in that way.

Someone who loves me.

Someone who wants to take care of me.

... ... ...

What would I do with that anyway?

I don't care how cheesy this is.

We never thought we'd become so close. We didn't even really try to be friends. We both needed someone to motivate the other to go to the gym. One Sunday morning we decided to give it a try. A few weeks later we began getting food after the gym. After that we decided to hang out and continue the conversations we had started at Planet Fitness or over Thai food. Soon enough she was the friend I told everything to. The friend I could sit chatting with for hours at a time. Out of nowhere I had found me a great additive to my circle of best friends. And over the summer, Laci grew closer to me than anyone else. And she's gone now... And I miss her terribly.

We could have the best time doing the stupidest shit.

Everything was funnier and stranger.

And then that crazy little friend of mine left. 

I am so happy for you Laci. So glad you found a good man and got out of this horrible state. I'm so inspired by your courage, strength and ability to love. But damn, I miss you so much. Don't forget how much you mean to me and how grateful I am that we became friends! Love you always <3

A List

Things there aren't enough of:

Zebras Good long nights of sleep Ventriloquists Heroes Cashiers at Fred Meyers Radio stations that only play my favorite song on repeat forever Rainy days in Alaska Beaches in Alaska Coupons Compliments Sweet dreams Roller coasters Women leaders Fuel efficient vehicles Happy marriages Collage scholarships Reggae bands Non permanent hair dye colors Bubbles... ever Good old fashioned Disney movies Colors of eyes Flying cars Cheering crowds Healthy things that taste good Leopards Dragons Dr. Seuss Books Really old (but clean [duh]) Tupperware Chips with the perfect amount of cheese on them in your plate of nachos Real-bearded Santas Freckles Flavors of jell-o Good paying and easy jobs Tea... In my cup. Right now Redheads Acceptance letters to Hogwarts Seasons of "Fame" Seasons of love Hours in a day Really, really tall people Time machines Costume Parties

Delirium

 

"When love is not madness, it is not love."

-Pedro Calderon de la Barca