Arthur: "No I'm off too."
Me: "Woo! Party!"
Arthur: "Do you want to have a party?"
Me: "Oh god no."
Me: "I'm not anti-social."
Arthur: "You're not. You just don't have any friends, never go anywhere and hate everyone."
Both of these conversations make me laugh. And they'd probably make me laugh more if they wernt laced with unfortunate truth.
Why do I keep myself so isolated?
a. It's out of my control. I try but I don't get along with many people or our schedules don't mesh.
b. I'm scared of getting hurt. So I'm scared of getting close.
c. I have secrets that I'm hiding from the world. If anyone gets too close, it might blow my cover.
d. I'm self conscious and anxious the idea of social interaction terrifies me.
e. I like feeling sorry for myself.
f. I simply like being a loner. I only need 1 or 2 friends and 90% of the time I'd rather be alone because I don't like people.
g. I have a hard time expressing my emotions. So much of a hard time that I'd really rather just not do it at all.
This may sound odd but I honestly have NO clue with option is the truth. How does anyone know so little about themselves??
