ttfn =]

When you miss someone you feel a sense of loss. When you lose someone with nothing to offer you anyway... Why care? Habit? I'm not sure. Lately I'm getting a grip on my feelings a little more. I miss my Adam friend... of course. But he's not so into talking to me at the moment. He's got lots to do and plenty to worry about. So I let him know I love him, and wait for him to contact me when he feels like it. Christian I'll always miss, but I'm not missing much now. We're both fairly happy, what more did we ever want really? I'm really going to miss Marc I think. Not that we ever hang out much. Not that we've ever become really close. But there's something in the friendship I just feel needs to be explored. Who knows, it still might... That's enough hope for me. Okay I miss Caitlin sometimes. I guess I just assume that we'll one day find our friendship again somewhere... We're just in different places now. I missed Allyson, but, she's back. I miss Joe, but he only ever got me into trouble anyway. He's better for me as a memory. No, I'm still not over missing Harry. lol I'll always love that kid. I needed him but I wasn't what he needed. And after a long time venting then cooling off... I can respect that.

I guess there's just no hard feelings with me anymore. Who am I mad at? No one. Who do I hate? No one. I care, I worry, I cry. But I don't hold those grudges anymore. I just.. don't. It's bizarre. If people are gone from me I guess they just want to be. And who am I to change their mind.

Go. Have fun. Be free. Make friends. Make memories. And by all means, come back if you don't find anything better. I might still be here. =]