Peace

I've always tried to have too much control over things in my life. I think that's where half my problems came from... Me trying to be in control.. When in reality I have no say in what happens. I mean, yes on a smaller scale I can control things. I can control my day. I can't control who I meet. I can't control who wants to be my friend. I can't control how fast the world moves around me. Lately it feels like I have to just sit back, take it all as it comes and deal with it.

You don't want to be my friend... I tried. I did... But I can't change your mind for you.

You say you need me. Okay, I'm here for you. I do love you. I do.

You say you don't know me. You don't bother. I'm not going to chase you. When you want to know me... you will =)

You expect so much from me. Well this is all I'm giving now. Later, we'll see. I need to do what's best for me.

I can't control your world any more than I can control mine. And I'm okay with that. I'm making the most of what I have. Which wouldn't seem like much.. A job. A close friend. A warm summers day... It's enough for me. My heart is not only healing, but growing. I'm open to hearing my options. Whenever they show up.