Changes

My life is almost nothing like it was a year ago. Different best friends. Different job. No school. And moving out soon. It's weird how as things are happening you don't notice that they're actuall;y changing your life. Looking back I ask myself, "Where was I when all this happened?" Too close to see what was going on. I was a wreck a year ago. Those close to me then will remember... Well, I dunno I kept my life quiet. Even the small things. Now, I feel put together. I'm trying to remind myself time and time again that things are going well. As I can feel myself getting sucked into the darkness of the changing seasons. Already, just with the easlier nights, later days, I feel down. My heart and I know things are going well. My emotions and I are convinced otherwise. What side am I on anyway? ... I can tell already this year winter will be better. I miss the company of a lot of people... Dance people. Best friends. Classmates. But I truely am surrounded by the small group of people who really care for me. It's easier to have hope now. Easier to keep my head above water. It's still hard, still a chore. But this winter.. I think I might be able to beat it.