Where Am I?

Unfamiliar ground. I'm sitting here alone, alone and content. Confused as ever and habitually upset. But for what? I'm lonely by choice this time. It's easier to deal with being alone if you don't fight against it first. People tell me I'm not dealing with my problems. What problems? I don't have any other than medical stuff. Guy problems? No... I don't have a boy, and don't want one. Friend problems? No... All my friends are where they want to be in my life. Most are farther away than usual but I'm fine with that. Truly and honestly, I'm fine with it. Something's clearly missing in my life. What? I don't know. It's not that I miss anyone really. I'll always miss being with Christian... I'll always miss Adam and Ashley. But as far as people I can actually see, I don't feel the need to draw anyone closer. The only problem in my life is I'm lonely. But what I'm missing isn't something or someone I miss, it's an unknown. I'm not unhappy. I'm not happy. I simply... am. Where am I? I've been asking myself that question since I got here. Feels like I'm somewhere between the end of the line and the middle of nowhere. Where to from here?