I had a dream last night that he was there. Everyone was there... But he was next to me. I tried to leave but he put his hand on my shoulder. He held me there. And Everyone was pretending not to notice. All my best friends were there. I looked over at Hannah and Sam and they looked away. He leaned in and started talking to me. I don't know what he was saying but it hurt. I tried to get up but he held me there. His voice got angrier and angrier. I kept hoping someone would say or do something. I started crying. I looked across the room at Adam and he just stared at me. I looked at Marc and he looked away. His voice got louder and angrier...
Then I woke up. Crying. Terrified.
It makes me feel so pathetic.
When will this go away?
Emily... I ASSURE YOU THAT I WOULD NEVER JUST SIT THER AND STARE.. maybe YOUR DREAM implys what we talked about eiler.. the whole feeling alone thing.. Sweetheart IT WILL go away just with time..
ReplyDeleteI know you wouldn't do that Adam. You of all people... I dunno. The dream just upset me. I'm sick of dealing with this.
ReplyDeleteits also been too long sense you wrote in your blog ha ha...its also been too long sense you wrote in your blog ha ha...
ReplyDeleteis this about egan???
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