Thursday, October 2, 2008
Too much
Too much drama. Too much life. My life was really boring for a while there. I prefer it that way. A lot of people know that something happened this past weekend that's sent me into this downward spiral of confusion and depression. There's a VERY select few who know the story. Let me start this by saying IT'S NOT PERSONAL!!! The issue is NOT if I told YOU or not. If anyone goes off on me for it I'll hit you. I didn't tell you the story for a reason. Except it. I just feel like I need to be doing something. There's absolutely nothing I can do but wait and talk. So here I am. I don't know what to do. I know what I'm going to do I guess I just don't know how to feel. I'm having issues with two of my best friends now because of this one thing. The school showed up in my life and I had to do some creative speaking to get out of the councilors office. Poor Mr. East... I randomly run into his room and ask for advice on extremely vague issues.. Poor dance people... I'm such a grouch. Poor Adam... He just happened to be on the phone at the wrong time... I just don't know how to control myself anymore. I'm sorry.. Anyone who reads this. I don't mean to be so horrible. It'll pass. In the mean time ignore me. This is generally the point in the routine where most my friends would leave my life. But I don't have much of anyone close. I'm thankful for that. I don't know where I'm supposed to be going with this blog. it's pointless. I just need to be talking. I need to be doing something. I'm failing 3 classes. I've run off the road twice now.. I can't understand dance anymore... Falling apart. Please forgive me.
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i feel ya... and u don't need to feel like you owe ME any sort of appology. you're doing your best and that's all i can ask. just be sure to take care of yourself and call me if u need. i'm here. love.
ReplyDeleteHey, you know we're here for you. If you ever need anything, you can call me. I'll even (gladly) beat someone up for you if you even mention it in passing half-jokingly. I know you're having a hard time right now and a lot of people are letting you down, but just remember that we're not all like them. Like my Adam says, have faith in people. They can do both great and terrible things.
ReplyDeletewell, i cant say much, i dont really know you, i know of some of your likes and dislikes, but thats about it...you seem pretyt sweet, and we do all have our own problems and demons and angels and whathave you, which makes us who we are and how we act...and we all have down days, or weeks...or hell months and years, which we may or may not be aware of...oh shesh im ranting a bit..ANYWHOS...the point is, YOU are neat. :3 ttyl, /hugs and not those lame hugs but one with love, cause srsly, love is awesome and makes things work even if they logicaly shouldnt..which is a nice little change of science....
ReplyDeleteyour cool, keep on changing, find out who u are somday ^_^