Adams

After last night I feel the need to write a blog dedicated to two of the nicest people I know. Adam an Adam Friend. I love these two so much. Last night as I was breaking down and crying... I text them both asking for help.. or just venting. Adam Friend called me and we talked for *checks phone* ... 01:02:21. I got off the phone with him, feeling slightly better... when I break down again about 30 minutes later I text Adam, He calls me *checks phone* ... 14 times. I pick up and we talk for *checks phone* ... 00:57:11. These two have heard me at my worst. Crying, breaking down, hating myself so deeply... All they had to say was, "You're worth it. You're amazing. You can make it." ... Encouragement... I appreciate it so much. I'm not saying they got through to me very much lol... But they love me. It helps. They're so different...

Adam Friend is 22
Adam is 16

Adam Friend is so southern...
Adam is an Alaskan boy

Adam Friend Can't speak English so good
Adam never spells anything wrong

Adam Friend knows everything about my past
Adam knows every detail about my current situations

Adam Friend is loud, outgoing and confident
Adam is quiet, shy and slightly insecure

The list could go on and on... I just find it amazing how these two people that reach my heart with the most ease are so opposite. They'll both take my side with anything I need... Even if I'm wrong! lol They know I need that.. They know I need them. I can tell either of them anything. I do. I'm just overwhelmed with gratitude towards the two of them. Last night was terrible... I've never felt quite like that before.

Adam Friend-
You said last night, "I want to make an impact on someones life. I want to change something for the better." Whenever you read this know, you've changed me for the better. Time and time again you've been there for me like that. You've let me help you... You spent a good 30 minutes last night just talking at me telling me everything you loved about me and everything you remember from our friendship. I wouldn't trade a bit of it for the world. You've kept me alive and sane. You've talked sense into me and you've supported me after I've made mistakes. Recently you backed out on me... I can't say I blame you. But you came back when I called for you and that means the world to me. I love you with anything I have left... You've made an impact. You've changed my world.

Adam-
You surprise me. I never expected you to be the way you are. You're relentless that's for sure... Nothing I could do or say could make you think any less of me. When Adam Friend backed out on me you were there. Not BECAUSE he backed out, just... because you wanted to help. Your voice is one of the most calming things I've ever heard and when I'm crying I want you there just talking and understanding me. You're an amazing person and it drives me crazy that more people don't see you the way I do.

Basically I love you both. You saved me from something last night. I don't know what I would do without either of you. I try not to need people... But I love needing you two. Honestly, I really do. Thank you both. I feel a little stupid writing some of this... But I want anyone who reads my blog to know how much I adore everything you two do for me.. Everything you said last night and all the support you give me when I ask. I couldn't ask for more from either of you.