* Live like you were dying

"He said I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came that stopped me on a dime
and I spent most of the next days
looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
and talking bout sweet times
I asked him when it sank in
that this might really be the real end
how's it hit you when you get that kinda news
man what'd you do

and he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper
and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband
that most the time I wasn't
and I became a friend a friend would like to have
and all the sudden going fishin
wasn't such an imposition
and I went three times that year I lost my dad
well I finally read the good book
and I took a good long hard look
at what I'd do if I could do it all again"
-- Tim McGraw

I bought this journal last summer when Caitlin and I were jammin' around. "Live like you were dying." I bought it for a few reasons. it was a good day, that's for sure. I remember I woke up to a text from Garrett, whom I was dating at the time. I wen to hang out with Caitlin and we went to a book store. While in the book store Egan called me, he had been on vacation so i hadn't heard much from him. I came across this book and the title instantly reminded me of Adam. He always used to quote that at me. "Live like you were dying." The book was also like 40% off so I bought it. It's full of thought provoking questions and open ended statements. I'll never write in it. So i decided to put it into blogs which I am far more likely to actually do. So here we go. A blog "series?" that will hopefully lead me somewhere new and exciting in my mind.

"I think the greatest secret in life is..."
I think the greatest secret in life is that while from a young age we are told to follow our hearts, we are also told what to do. And what not to do. There are millions of little restrictions binding us to where we stand in life. In life, we need to realize those restrictions do not have to be there. If we try hard enough and really focus ourselves on it we really can do what will lead us to complete and total peace within our hearts. Free from pressure, we can chose where we want to go. Sure, we will always have a hard time getting there. Obstacles will arise and honestly no one really cares what's in your heart. It's up to the individual. The weight of the world may be crushing a person until they can hardly breath but they still have strength somewhere inside them if they dig deep enough through their soul. It's hard to know what's best for yourself. Personally I make a lot of horrible mistakes that pull me back steps at a time. I'm rarely alone in this though. Very often I hope that I am not hindering the progress of other people as much as some of them impede me. I think people should be a little more aware of their influence in other people's life. I don't think we need each other. I think if a person is at the ideal place in life they're okay standing alone. But to get there we have to overcome all these feelings of attachment and need. We should help each other more than we do. We're all on a similar journey through life trying to find our ways to the top. We do not need each other as much as we think, but it helps. It helps get us there to have friends and loved ones. And it helps us get there to be free from the suppression we feel from each other. If only people could see that we all have more choices than we appear to have... I think that's the greatest secret the world has. We're all free. We all have choices. We just forget sometimes.