Wednesday, August 20, 2008

The Last First Day

School starts today. I'm a senior this year. It's kinda of sad... I went into freshmen year thinking, "Great! High school! This is going t be amazing!!" I went into Sophmore year thinking, "This year will be even better. I love all my friends!" I went into Junior year thinking, "Well shit, what more could go wrong?" And I'm going into Senior year thinking, "Nothing to lose." Most of the high school life lessons I think I've got. Broken heart, lost best friend, death, failed classes, car crash, job, drugs, alcohol... Now it's just learning to live without things. Learning to take everything that's happened to me and become a successful, independent person. Actually... Grow up? By now I think one of the only things holding me back is that I have forgotten how to love as I once could. My friends are dear to me, but I've been hurt too much to let myself lean on anyone. But I guess it's all part of growing up and becoming your own person. So... here we go. Senior year.

1 comment:

  1. sure, learning to take care of yourself is apart of growing up. But learning to love after a fractured, bruised, stomped on and finally broken heart is a part of life. These are all lessons that you don't have to learn... but are a great idea to...cuz if not you'll end up alone. stay strong. and remember to smile more, you deserve to.

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