Monday, August 25, 2008

Because of them...

You really do learn something new from every person you meet. No matter how small a lesson or how big.. Everyone you encounter in your life makes some kind of change in you.

Looking back I’ve realized that every guy who’s played a big part in my life has taught me one of those amazing, life altering lessons. Yes, girls have taught me things too.. But the impressions are never as deep. Not sure why… It’s not the issue either. I made a short list…

Seth(1st boyfriend) taught me confidence.
-- Okay not a lesson I learned well from. But if you can believe it I used to be less self confident.
Brad(2nd boyfriend) taught me acceptance.
-- Don’t ask questions. Accept it.
Egan(friend) taught me, over the course of about 2 years, forgiveness.
-- Or… Well I learned it because of him.
Christian(3rd boyfriend. First love) taught me just how strong I can really be.
Timmy(friend) taught me it is possible to have fun even if life’s not going the way you planned.
-- This may be because he’s just insane. Oh well.
Adam(friend) taught me that it’s okay to trust.
-- Even if it hurts.
Harry(best friend) taught me how to truly care for another person.
-- By letting me. If only for a short amount of time.
Joe(friend) taught me how to give space when needed.
Garrett(4th boyfriend) gave me what I needed to learn to let go.


My point… I guess is that no matter how much any of these people hurt me (they ALL did) I regret nothing. I wouldn’t be half of who I was without these people. Honestly I don’t like myself much. But I would be even worse off without the guys in my life.

Girls don’t hurt me. With one exception no girl has ever really harmed me emotionally. I care about my girl friends very much. I love them deeply. But what is it about the opposite sex? Why do they effect us the way they do? It’s not necessarily sexual. My friends listed above… Nothing sexual. Just.. Emotional. And not the most emotional people even. I’m not even looking for an answer. Just sending this thought out into the world. What is it about them? Why do they effect us so?

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