Let Down

I'm so angry at you... I've NEVER been angry at you like this. I've been upset. I've been disappointed. I've been annoyed. I've been frustrated. But never actually mad at you. What am I supposed to DO with this?? You mean so much to me and I was so hopeful... You MADE me hopeful! Now you make me angry. You make me sad. There was a time when you made me so happy. You made me smile. You made me blush. You made me weak in the knees. And now... Now I'm at a loss. Now... now I'm confused. Where did it all go? It was ALL there. Then suddenly, *poof* gone. The magic disappearing trick of happiness. You're a magician. You're a performer. You're a ring leader and I'm the clown. I'm the entertainment. And don't try to fool me. You meant what you said.