Do you hear that? That's the sound of my world falling apart.
.... No? Try again.
Listen.
Still nothing? No turbulent waves of sorrow? No sanity losing control and crashing? No Spiral of despair? No frantic breathing and horrified screams grieving for the shattered remains of hopes and dreams?
… No?
Well What about this.. ssshhhh... Listen closely!
Yes?
No... okay... If you just... hold your breath! Close your eyes! Now listen.
No? No happiness? No pleasure? No laughter, music, emotion, love, joy?! Nothing at all!?
No... You can't hear it. You won't.
Who am I without you?
Who am I if I have to hear this alone?
What have I become?
no one can hear your pain but yourself. it's the burden each person carries... granted some have it a hell of a lot worse than others... but still. you are still the same person... just growing up. you are not becoming some sort of freak. Emily, you are a beautiful person, inside and out. (cliche NOT intended)
ReplyDeletereally tho... it's not YOUR fault that the sky is falling. You just have to survive it. You wouldn't have been born if you weren't strong enough to handle this shit. okay? you are doing better than you EVER give yourself credit for. once ur not living with you family things will improve... they will. know you're loved. you'll make it through.
think about it... if anything happens to you... what the fuck do I do??
your world may be falling apart, but you have to struggel though it, for when you make it out you can look back and say, well that sorta sucks, glad thats over, each new day is a new chance at something new, weather you actlly you know, act on it, is up to you...
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