Sorry Lavina... Here you go. ... For reals.

Now that Lavina already posted a blog about clouds this is less cool but.. Shlina kept telling me to post a blog I wrote(this one) that I just hadn't posted yet... I took some of it out but this is basically it.

A while ago I was talking to Lavina. She was asking me why I was doing something... I gave a VERY vague answer. She said to me, "You're like a cloud!"

Why?...


-- "A visible body of very fine water droplets or ice particles suspended in the atmosphere at altitudes ranging up to several miles above sea level."

-- "Something that darkens or fills with gloom."

-- "Something that obscures."

-- "Suspicion or a charge affecting a reputation."

-- "Imaginary; unreal; fanciful."


Okay... I guess I can see it. In our conversation she said it was hard to understand me or get me to be clear. I told her if I got too clear and solid I get scared of storming and raining on people. I guess this works pretty well. Obscure, unreal, darkens... Everyone asks me why I draw away from my friends when life gets complicated. Wouldn't it make more sense to bring them closer? ... I realize the effect I have on people and I don't like it... I like to be part of the scenery. Like a fluffy, beautiful cloud in the sky on a hot summer day. When I feel myself becoming weighed down I drift away from other people so I don't ruin there day with darkness and drama. Like a cloud I start light.. as time goes on I carry more and more with me until I explode and let it all out until I feel relieved of some stress. ... I'd rather be a pretty, nice part of someones day than the rain on their parade or the dark sky over their picnic.